My Last Poem

No more words.
Nothing, never.
There've been too many already.
Just a silence-long, deep, eternal
A decay-painful, slow, but steady.
The only window to my mind still open
Is contaminating the machine; I'm getting rusty
This window needs to be shut down now
The storms are too strong and too dusty.
We've seen together moments good and bad
Some special, some anguished, of praises and fights
For all the love, the friendship, the admiration
And equally the pain-I'm as grateful as one might
Maybe you'd complain there's too much unsaid
And unheard, still, the decision won't bend
I beg you not to protest or plead, just remember
All things, good and bad, come to an end
Incarnations cease to exist, but existence cannot.
Though I'd hate to, but I'll still be-invisible, but around.
I've lived for long, undeservedly, in your hearts &
As I empty this crazy home, it's only grief, and gratitude, profound.
Do me a last favour, fulfill the last wish
Do not wipe my tears, and do not question why and I promise to stay as near to your heart
As u want; Just call my name out, for once,try
I'll live in the words I'm robbed off today
In coincidences from past, in every empty look
Tomorrow may not exist, today may be oblivious
So I'll be yesterday-until you chose to shut the History book
I beg you not mercy for selfishness unabated
I beg you not pity to this selfish piece of matter
I beg you not a chance to explain or justify
I just beg you to move on, and forget.


Hi everyone,

I know it may come as unexpected to most of you, but the words above say it all I guess, and whatever they don't, would never be said. Those who can, would have already heard them.I wanna thank everyone who ever came to this blog, who ever read anything i wrote, and to all those who cared to comment, criticise and appreciate. A 1000+ hit count and perpertual comments prove that.
THANX A LOT.
Please understand that this has nothing to do with any one of you.This message is specially for Lucky,Andy and Krit coz I know thats what you alll gonna believ as soon as you see this.NO ITS NOT.Its just my very own personal decision which is not in any way whatsoever related to any of you. Once I changed as a person and started writing.I am changing again,this time I'll stop writing
I'm not gonna delete this page...
I can't for I have loved it too much.
But I won't post again..
Still, I'll be around, for I don't have a choice.
Incarnations cease to exist, but existence cannot
If u ever liked or loathed anything on this page, or the person behind it, do me a favour. Do not ask me to change my decision, for I won't. I beg you not to protest or plead- the decision will not bend Anyway, if u ever regarded me as a friend, dont be afraid..u r not gonna LOSE me. I'll be there, always, as long as I am.
Another thing...please dont mention anything related to this on orkut as am not logging in there these days and hence wont be able to delete any related scraps
I guess have said enough, more than I needed to.
No more words.
Nothing, never.
There've been too many already.

GoodBye
Lots of love and luck
Shaivi

Tu mere saath hai...:(

I firmly believe in the power of music. Some songs have the capability to penetrate the thickest of the skins and reach the soul… They touch strings of your heart, you din know existed.
Nahin Saamne is one such song… It makes me cry every single time I listen to it. Yes! Every single time. And if i listen to it 5 times a day, I know ill cry 5 times at least that day. And that too one particular piece of music…



These days this song has started having a new meaning in my life




Dekho chod ke kis raste wo jaate hain
saare raste wapas mere
dil ko aate hain

Nahi saamne ye alag baat hai
nahi saamne ye alag baat hai
mere paas haiiiiiii
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere saath hai
mere saath hai

Tera naam maine liya hai yahan
mujhe yaad tune kiya hai wahan
tera naam maine liya hai yahan
mujhe yaad tune kiya hai wahan
bade zor ki aaj barsaat hai
bade zor ki aaj barsaat haiiiiiii
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere saath hai
mere saath hai

Bichad ke bhi mujhse juda tu nahi
khafa hai magar bewafa tu nahi
bichad ke bhi mujhse juda tu nahi
khafa hai magar bewafa tu nahi
mere haath mei he tera haath hai
mere haath mei he tera haath haiiiiii
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere pass hai tu mere pass hai
mere saath hai
mere saath hai

mere pass
mere pass hai
mere saath
mere saath hai
mere pass hai
mere pass hai

:((

Stop fighting!!! ...And hey happy birthday

I'm old enough and therefore wise;

With age our brains grow bigger in size.

So I wish for you a long, long life,

So your brain can grow bigger and stop causing strife.
And although we often disagree,

There’s a strong hope that I can see,

For it’s birthday time; a year has passed;

Your brain is getting bigger fast.
Before too long, your bulb may light;

No longer will you want to fight,

Because when you have a brighter mind,

It will be easier for us to think in kind.
With each year you live your thinking grows stronger,

And that’s why I wish you’ll live a whole lot longer.

Happy Birthday!

Tere liye senti stuff bahut ho gaya so thought to write something like this :P

Happy Birthday Candy :)

This is from Krit me n Lucky :)

Random thoughts and observations

# You could go to any part of the world, earn as much money as you want, but your home country/city will always be on top of your list.

# If you think you know what a woman goes through every month when she is PMSing, take that thought and throw it out of the window. You never could understand and you never will… You just are not made to understand it!

# Pretty girls almost always end up with not-so-good-looking guys when they could have easily had the best ones… ever wondered why?

# People, as a rule, are not satisfied with their lives… irrespective of the position or the cadre. They always have some unfulfilled desire.

# Never and I mean never even think about over taking guys on the road.Even if the need arises to do so,better slow down as much as possible or just stop and let them go but dont over take!!!

# Happiness is the most un-sought-after and difficult-to-attain wealth.

# The single most frightening thought that comes in the mind of a woman frequently is the fear of being raped. This fear is more than the fear of death!

# Adults LOVE to read comics… Though few are ready to accept it.

# Given a chance, most of us would love to go back to our school, and will probably sit in the same bench we used to.

# It is indeed only a woman, who can take hot wax, put it on her body, and then peel it off… every month!!!

# There is always some part of your body, you wish you could change.

# The best food and the most expensive food in the world can not beat the simple food cooked by your mom.


Enough bakar for the moment… More later :D

Beautiful....

प्रेम अपने सिवाय कुछ नही देता और अपने सिवाय दूसरे किसी से कुछ नही लेता,प्रेम किसी पर अधिकार नही करता,न अपने ऊपर किसी का अधिकार स्वीकार करता है,क्यूंकि प्रेम अपने लिए अपने आप में ही पर्याप्त है ।


Something beautiful I came across

A boy?!?Where???

Well, hee hee, we're so used to seeing nothing but girls in college that if one or two dudes are seen anywhere in college, our first reaction is to stare, rub our eyes in disbelief and walk on, wondering what new event allowed them to step into our hallowed premises. And me, having spent nearly my entire school life in only girls school(Apni to kismat he kharab hai :P).Now, as I see it, it's so ironic...recently I've made more 'guy' friends than I could ever hope to . It's a nice change - personally, I think guys are a LOT easier to talk to(Tonu and a few others are exception here:)). No bitching, double meanings or crap. Just plain straight-forwardness...that's how I am too. As for these dudes I'm friends with; they're nice, intelligent, have a sense of humour and are capable of striking a meaningful conversation. A welcome change from girls who behave one way to your face and change as fast as a chameleon as soon as you're gone. :)

But still college rocks - without the guys too - :) :P

Proud to call.....

Every morning as I wake up

I think of you

As the hero that came into my life

More and more you appeared to me

When I was in strife

Afraid I could not live wothout you in my life

I only prayed every day and every night

To have a brother like you by my side

When I was hurt so many times

You never let me down

Therefore I am proud

To call you a true brother

Even though I know you are not a child of my parents

To me you'll always be

My chota wala bro

And remembered you see

As the sugar 'Candy' of my life

Forever the memory will seem right

For me you are.... Not a brother by birth but a brother by right :-)

A personalised message for him:-

Bhai I am not going anywhere and even when I was leavin it was never and I repeat never coz of you.It was coz of myself only ...anyways thats not what I wanna say here.What I wana say is itni aasani se tera peecha nahi chodne wali main...tu pareshan ho jayega but am not gonna leave you :P...Infact once you have a gal in your life (ahem ahem ahem bhai :P) it will actually irritate the hell out of you ki teri deeds kabhi tujhe akela kyun nahi chodti :P :D...and sorry for the pathetic rhyming of the poem above heheheh :P

I fighted and said bye to everyone and am feeling so yucky





and everyone was just so understanding...they so good and I am so bad :((

I wonder....

The counter of my blog has recently crossed the 1000 mark ... with the last 400 odd hits coming in the last 10 days. I wonder who has the time and inclination to view all the crap that i write. :p

Ok on a serious note I wanna thank all those ep\ople who very faithfully come to my blog regularly even when at times what I give are sulky posts.:) I know a lot of people do visit it regularly even though I hardly get any comments.Thats okay with me.This number tells in itself that people do like my blog even though they dont mention it much :)

Thanks again :D

Gone are the days....

When:-
The school reopened in April,
And we settled in our new desks and benches!

When:-
We queued up in book depot,
And got our new books and notes!

When:-
We wanted two Sundays and no Mondays, yet managed to line up daily for the morning prayers.
We learnt writing with slates and pencils, and progressed to fountain pens and ball pens.

When:-
We began drawing with crayons and evolved to colour pencils and sketch pens and finally water colours!

When:-
We chased one another in the corridors in intervals, and returned to the classrooms drenched in sweat!

When:-
We had lunch in classrooms, corridors,playgrounds,under the trees and even in cycle sheds!

When:-
A single P.T. period in the week's Time Table,was awaited more eagerly than the monsoons!

When:-
Few rushed at 1:45 to"Conquer" window seats in our School bus!
While few others had "Big Fun", "peppermint","Kulfi", "milk ice!" and "sharbat!" at 2 o' Clock!

Gone are the days
Of Sports Day,
and the annual School Day,
And the one-month long
preparations for them.

Gone are the days
Of the stressful surprise tests,
Quarterly,Half Yearly and Annual Exams, and the most
enjoyed holidays after them!

Gone are the days
of tenth and twelfth standards,
when spent almost the whole year
writing revision tests!

We learnt,

We enjoyed,

We played,

We won,

We lost,

We laughed,

We cried,

We fought,

We thought.

With so much fun in them, so many friends,

So much experience, all this and more!














Since the day watched TZP kinda getting nostalgic about my school days
Yeah I know I still have the college days going but those days were something else and none can compare to that right???:)

Good times!!!

And thats why I love Garfield.