Wonderwall

Everyone has a bucket
Filled with drops of pain and tears
Only a few have the sponge
To absorb it with a Love ya in the ears
Yet fewer have feet walking beside
That drink the overflowing bits
And fewer still have the guiding hands
That allow you to carry it without spills
Friends are rare, love is rarer
Luck to retain them is rarest of all
The tottering soul fumbles in the dark
Searching for its wonderwall

Gam is tarah badhe ke zindagii ban gaye
Ashq behte rahe, aur zameen ban gaye
Khushk aankho mein bhi meri jhalakte rahe
Kya zid the tum ke phir namii ban gaye

Ehsaas

Read this poem somewhere its beautiful trust me :)


Kitaabon ke panno pe padti peeli dhoop hun mein…
Baalo mein sarsarati pankh wali harwa hun mein …
Aankho ke neeche padti halki halki lakeere hun mein …
Ice creame ke liye fudakti kissi bacche ki zid hun mein…
Paaani mein bahti hui choti si naav hun mein ..
Kissi ke kaandhe mein basa araam hun mein ….
Chamakti os ki boondo mein bhari roshni hun mein ..
neebu ke khatte achaar mein basa swad hun mein ..
tedi hui bhavo ke kone mein basa pyaar hun mein ..
…chookar dekho …yahi aas paas hun mein..
Kuch aur nahi ..jine ka ehsaas hun mein...:)

Taking for granted

Soemtime, we take the ppl around us too much granted for anything. Whether its some favor or may be too much leg pulling or may be some other stuff.

I hate when ppl sometime take me for granted for everything. sometimes its ok... but ALL d time, it becomes so annoying x(.But too much of everything is bad, bad for all the habits, bad for the ppl involved, bad for the relations too. Dunno where to draw the exact lines but still, is it ok to take pals around us granted for anything?

LIFE, everybody around us also take the life for granted. Dunno why, we see the ppl around us getting killed in accidents, terrorist attacks or some natural calamities. But, we hardly take care of our own life thinking that this is not gonna happen with me. Why not? I duuno. Even I myself take my life for granted :( need to change the habit !! :)

So, whats that u take for granted??

Hello class,

I know you all are eagerly waiting for your marks but the result takes time you know.Itne saare papers check karne hain :p
Waise aaj tak kabhi school mei bhi itni jaldi result paaye ho jo yahaan pe u all machling lol
The results gonna be out in a few days so wait eagerly
Arjun Dont you have any manners how you should talk to your teacher ???Very bad child :p
Taruna be regular in class or next time I wont allow you to sit in the exam because of short attnedance :P
Lucky I really worry for you sweetie you cheat so much just pray for yourself
Venus... Boy are u overconfident??Lets see....Dont forget I am the teacher here
So class see you all soon with your marks n us din pata chalega kaun kitne paani mei ho :p

Never say die

I will never commit suicide. (Not tht I am feeling like it or anything right now.) Just out of nowhere this thought surfaced in my mind, and I realized, tht no matter how bad things may be, I ll never kill myself, or any part of me….well the latter is kinda debatable but not the former. No matter how terrible my circumstances be, I wld never choose to end it.

I feel so bcoz I see myself doing such a thing many a times. Its very hard for me to end things. I de never kill anything. I don’t even kill a mosquito, though there are a lot of other pests I squash every now and then. But how is this relevant to what I was saying. Lol!

I see myself doing this in terms of relationships for one. Howsoever bad the condition might have become, I can never really go up to a person and say, “hey, lets end it now”. (But then when I do forge relationships i hope they de last forever. I know thts hardly ever possible, but I cant help myself from dreaming!!)

Some wld say I lack the courage and stuff, but I think differently. I give ppl a lot of space. Even if I get a little cramped up myself sometimes. I just let things be coz death is a kind of finality. That which is over has lost all chances of improvement. And even in the most grievous of situations I see, or expect to see, or imagine seeing at least some ray of hope. Somehow I believe, and very fervently mind you, that no situation is an utterly hopeless situation.

I might not realize wht a blessing life is, but I know for me having a chance to live is smth great. And I am very very selfish abt it. Or a bit too optimistic, coz I think as long as I am alive I have chance to change it for better. I really don’t know wht to make of all tht I ve scribbled above. Am I a fighter, or a die-hard optimist, or simply a coward. Whatever I or you choose to call me, I will never give in to life, or to death.

Missing You

I can see the moon hanging in the night
But it seems to have lost its shine forever
It seems to me a mere fake, a reflection
My moonlight's plunged into darkness forever
The winds had stolen my smiles away
Now they've also turned my tears dry
I miss the embrace that protected my soul
I miss the shoulder on which I could cry
I touch my heart and I hear your voice
I close my eyes and I see you near
Yet with senses awoken when I long to reach to you
I don't know where to, or why you disappear
I remember the teasing, those winking chuckles
I remember the walks with your hands in mine
I remember the silence that spoke volumes unheard
I miss the hand squeezing my palm that promised it'll be fine
I crave for the heart that spoke directly to mine
I crave for talking to someone till dawn
I writhe in sweet pain for the love that made me breathe
But no words suffice to measure how much I miss you

Question Paper

# Why is it more difficult to "forget" some things than it is to remember a lot others?

# What do you do with suppressed, unjustified, unexpressed, yet undying anger?

# Even not making a choice is a choice, and it's often the wrong one. Still, what to choose when you don't know anything about which choice is right, and can't wait indefinitely?

# In an ideal world, one would say "give as much as you take, and take as much as you give" and be entirely capable of doing that. In the real world though, what do you do? Take more than give, or give more than take?

# If time were your slave, would you stop it when you were happy?

# What do you do when you're pulled out of self-denial by abundance, then suddenly brought to paupership again, and by now your habits have been terribly spoiled?

# Is "being loved when you don't love" somebody's fault? Is it something meaningful or complete in itself? Is it desirable?

# Would you call anybody who lies as a dishonest person? What's your definition of honesty?

# Can you love somebody enough to kill them?

Thought for the day :)

Women are weird ;)

Me included but atleast I am sporting enough to admit it :p

P.S. if you cant read the comic then click on the picture and get a larger one...that will help you to read it :)

I AM BACK :)

Hey guys I am back.Yeah yeah I know I literally vanished in the thin air :p but I was having a rocking time with my brother you see...samjha karo yaar :p
So now the blog is back on track.Keep a tab on it :)

Hey friends I am going out,to Lucknow...my bro is coming back from Europe (Yepieeeeeeeeeeeeee :D) .Since the flight cant land here in Allahabad (I wish :p) we all are going to receive him.Yeah yeah he is coming home after almost one year :) and I am so excited so guys cya when I come back until then keep smiling.Chao take care :)

Happy Happy Wala Buday :)

Today is my brother's birthday.He is in Europe all alone for the first time on his birthday :).This is for you bhaiya....Many Many Happy Returns Of The Day...Thank you for being the best and coolest brother in this whole wide world :)

Everybody hurts

I'm at a loss of words.Although the above describes the present perfectly, it is also one of the excuses for my depressing entries in the blog. I'm just tired of the computer and the web for one and secondly I have been feeling stifled, lost, frustrated and a little dazed all the time so I never felt any zeal to pour out positive words out of me in any form whatoever. Now I really hate myself. And I don't think this is like my short-lived old modes which came regularly and disappeared with a kind word and a few smiles. I had been feeling the draining of energy, enthusiasm, worth and confidence out of me for a few days, and tonight it seems the drainage is complete. I think I'd survive though...something tonight told me I neither have a right to live nor die. I can see the mirror now, and I'm not really proud of my reflection any more.Everybody hurts. Sometimes. Hold on? What for?
If I telll people exactly what I am feeling bad about everyones gonna be like I am over reacting but I dont think so.Ok fine so am always in a jolly mood I dont take anything seriously and most of the time I am behaving like a child but would it be too much if I ask people to listen to me for once,not to joke on everything I say,not to always pull my leg?Theres so much bottled up inside me right now that I really want to talk to someone but theres no one around me (except for the two gems and come on those two have a life apart from me too they cant be with me always) who could sit long enough with me to hear me out.
Peoples simple jokes hurt me now more than I can tell them :(

Angry Kya ?

Ye gussa kyun aata hai?

Anger, that familiar emotion, both complete absence and too much presence of which ain't good. Sometimes you need to be angry enough to be provoked to do something, take an action, put a strong fight and make a difference. Lack of anger can breed callousness and indifference in entire populations, and that's good for none. But mostly, anger is harmful, for it often provokes you into doing the wrong, impulsive thing. Negative thoughts, rash words and actions and murder of calmness, patience and love are direct effects of anger. And even more dangerous is the unexpressed version of anger, that simmers inside, makes one irritable and impatient, frustrates and demoralises till it eventually explodes. No wonder somebody's silence is often the most dangerous part about her/him.
I get irritated much more often than I get angry, and in 98% of the cases my anger rises and boils off within minutes (if it doesn't you're screwed!). But I wish I dont get angry at all. Patience and perseverence types, you know. Now I know most of those that know me even a bit or read this blog have labelled me moody, cribber etc. for good. I've become too expressive for my own good, and it's high time I return to more silent, contained, patient and forgiving modes :)
But enough about me, anger happens to everyone. On a jerk of a boss/teacher or a pain of a neighbour/spouse. Even those who claim "I never get angry" can be provoked by sufficient mischief itself ;) But what would this world be if anger weren't there? I cant imagine. None of our "elders", sacred texts and moral science lessons have advocated anger, so I should imagine it would be a better place. Perhaps...
Lately I have started getting angry too much.Why?I dont know but suddenly I have started feeling that people dont care for me or that maybe its something in me only that I cant bring out that common emotion "care" in people when it come to me.I guess I am a loner hunh???:)
But thanks again to the two gems in my life (those of you who dont know who they are consult the older posts) they make me feel that still there are some people in this world for whom I matter :)

P.S. I am going in hibernation mode on orkut.For how long I dont know.Maybe a few hours,a few days,a few weeks or a few months but I just dont feel like coming on orkut when I come and see no one seems to care.But whoever thinks am worthy enough to be in touch I'll be regular here.So take care all of you and enjoy :)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I am depressed

Don't ask me why, but I'm very very very depressed...There's nothing I'm feeling at the moment, I'm just numb. I don't know what I'm writing, or why. Do not read it, atleast do not ask me anything. I don't wanna say, or do, anything.I'm just.....Forget it, I think i should go home now.

I dont know why but I am feeling damn left out.As if no one cares whether I stay or go away.I know I am not coming online myself,I kno I am closing around in my own shell but these days simple things,simple words,things that even a stupid can tell are not done to hurt me well hurt me.I am taking ootpataang ki meaning out of every damn thing people say to me and I wanna stop this :(
But then I kno am not poori tarah se wrong here.Its just that I have finally started niticing it atleast with a few people.
P.S. To all the readers who are regular on my blog the above two lines are not refered to any of you. :(

Everything is lost..

Those thoughts we shared
and the future we framed
those sweet words that were spoken
n much more that was left unspoken
Where n why did it go wrong
or was it that way all along?
thinking abt us 10 yrs ahead
i failed to see wat is just ahead
for me its like a fairytale
in which an angel came at night
made my night so wonderful
n left me at the first twilight..
Everything is lost....
all those dreams that never came true
even the angel I never saw through