I'm at a loss of words.Although the above describes the present perfectly, it is also one of the excuses for my depressing entries in the blog. I'm just tired of the computer and the web for one and secondly I have been feeling stifled, lost, frustrated and a little dazed all the time so I never felt any zeal to pour out positive words out of me in any form whatoever. Now I really hate myself. And I don't think this is like my short-lived old modes which came regularly and disappeared with a kind word and a few smiles. I had been feeling the draining of energy, enthusiasm, worth and confidence out of me for a few days, and tonight it seems the drainage is complete. I think I'd survive though...something tonight told me I neither have a right to live nor die. I can see the mirror now, and I'm not really proud of my reflection any more.Everybody hurts. Sometimes. Hold on? What for?
If I telll people exactly what I am feeling bad about everyones gonna be like I am over reacting but I dont think so.Ok fine so am always in a jolly mood I dont take anything seriously and most of the time I am behaving like a child but would it be too much if I ask people to listen to me for once,not to joke on everything I say,not to always pull my leg?Theres so much bottled up inside me right now that I really want to talk to someone but theres no one around me (except for the two gems and come on those two have a life apart from me too they cant be with me always) who could sit long enough with me to hear me out.
Peoples simple jokes hurt me now more than I can tell them :(
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aree sweetiee....... i undrstand.... smtyms evn simple joks of frn' hurt.... n i knw its nt possible 2 smile bk ven u r in pain....
b positive.....jus tk evrythin easy.... close ur eyes....relax... tk a deeep breathe..... smile.... n den open ur eyes... u 'l find d world beautiful agn :)
trust me it wrks....i 2 wz recommended by 1 of ma frn.... :)
abhi mera bhai aayega wo samjhaega....
bhai tera department.... i gues she gt bord listnin 2 me agn n agn lolz...
ji di ...u no longer are required here ...so back off ..:p....sooiiee ..jayda ho gaya ..:(...
the worst thing ..a person can do is ...to hate himself/herself ...once u start to hate urself ..u hate the ppl around u ...so ...DON'T LET THAT HAPPEN ...
"If I tell people exactly what I am feeling bad about everyones gonna be like I am over reacting"
atleast ..try to say it ..may be ..someone ..someone ...knows ..exactly ..what u r feeling like ..
well i love to joke around ...play pranks .. pull ppl's leg ...after all ..i am lucky di's bro ..:d...
but ..shaivya...hello ..here ..ya ya ...right here ... look around ..and say what u wanna say ..what u wanna talk ..what u feel ....someone's listening ..
AND EXTREMELY SORRY FOR THE ABSENCE ...BSNL SERVER WENT DOWN ..:(...
@ lucky i kno u al r rite n m tryin bt i feel like hurtin every1 d way dey hurt me n i dnt seem 2 giv a damn dese days as 2 wat dey say or think:(
@ arjun its k sweetie lucky told me y u absent np:)...i av tried dis arjun n after tryin it m sayin it ki ppl say m over reactin
jokin is perfectly ok wid me arjun afteral i do tht too bt wen ppl start makin subtle insults on d xcuse of jokin it hurts....secondly as far as i kno u from wat lucky hs told me u joke bt u r also dere for d very same frend u played pranks with if he/she is low,angry etc....not in my case n my frends:(
n ty i kno u dere 2 listen thts y i pour out everythin on my blog :)
* as far as i kno u from wat lucky hs told me u joke bt u r also dere for d very same frend u played pranks with if he/she is low,angry etc....not in my case n my frends:( *
chalo ..that means i am not ur frnd ...rules me out of ur frnd list ...awesome ..huh ..:x...
hey gal jus relax....
dese day of urs wl b gone soon....do trust ur frndzz share wid dem...dey really care for u....
n plzz dnt stat hatin urself....
i hve stred believe ki...y u need sum1 to live for...cnt we live for our own...:):)..try it its nt so daam tought to b happy for ur own....
n rest we r wid u..:)
shaivya dear.....hmm wat to say dear....u know wat.....i thinked the same thing u thinking....u know why did i changed ma name to happiest.....i think no one can gueess........ya...srsllly telling shaivya....life is really hard nutsheel to crack...but whosoever had done it is the best one to live it.....
sometimes in life we find somethings that not worth fo us......and sometimes we find the things dat are worth of us...but we are not worth for them.....
so everything has its own goodness and badness.....in life u will never get everything according to ur wish ....u have to sometimes compromise wid urself....
i will not say that feeling alone is bad or to think a lot positive as i know sometime it better to be alone rather then to scarstic.....even i used to be alone most of the times.....i think too no one can understand me....but u know wat...i knot that ma thinking is wrong...but srslly i am no body to do anyhting.....i srslly dont guts to face it and overcome it....i am living it wid....and so do i think u are////.....
dis is ma wrong thinking and so do urs....but who am i to say u all that...nothing but a stanger who talks to u a little bit ocassionalyy...but one thing is dere dear......when u getting something good in life cheer for it and when u didnt get that,.,,,den be sad for it but dont cry for it.......
and reagarding ur two gems...i dont know who they are....and i really wish from god and oray too that they live life long as that they can....and wid u alwys....but dear.....its very true fact of the life that....ur life cant be totally based on others...there is always the case when u are totally on ur own and no one is there for ur help
in last i will say only one dailouge,,,,,,that i really loved and had changed ma life for u..........
" when we are in trouble or bad mood ...god just sent some one too listen to us and help us ...as god has faith in that person....but when he doesnt sent any one.....it means god has faith in us.......and thats the bottomline.........."
hope so i could be of any help to u.......keep smiling:):)
awsmmm venus bro.......
oh bro wo gem mein hun...bloo color wali gems hun mein :P ;)
n arjun bhai..... thank u 4 mkin her undrstand....
taru thanks 2 u 2...
m sure its gna hit her mind n she 'l undrstand it :)
shaivy dekh mere dono bhai kitne intelligent hai....bade samjhdhar... haaan ya ya sahi keh rahi hai mujhpar hi gaye hai :P :) :) :)
lucky di .... aap kabhi chup nahi hote na ...:X ...mujh par hi gaye hai ..bla bla bla...:p.... bhagwan ne socha ..ki behne ke pass toh dimag hai nahi ..toh bhaiyon ko hi de do ..iska khyal toh rakhenge ...and thats what we r doing ..nahi ..toh aap ka kya bharosa...roz koi na koi galti kar ke baith gaye hote ..:p..:D
bhai buah buah buah :( :( :( mere pass dimag hai :P tum samajhte hi nahi....kabhi toh dhyan diya karo m also smart n talentd 8) :D
aisi faltu ki cheezon pe dhyaan nahi deta main ..:P..:D
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